My mom doesn’t even look like herself in this picture haha.
Every year Mother’s Day just reminds me of how it seems like everyone else has a special relationship with their mothers and I don’t. I don’t really mind now but when I was younger it really did bother me. Our relationship has gotten a lot better over the years and I do love my mom unconditionally. But sometimes I wish I could hug her or she could give me one but then again I don’t see how we could do that without feeling awkward and I don’t even really think I’ve ever told her I loved her. I just hope in the future we can be more comfortable but regardless I think I have the most beautiful mom haha :P
I think about you in everything that I do only cause I love you. I let you sleep even if I want to stay up only cause I love you. I feed you even if I’m hungry only cause I love you. Though you may not think this happens, I let you have the last word only cause I love you. I give you things without expecting anything back only cause I love you. I support you in everything only cause I love you. I’m willing to do anything even if I’m exhausted if it means I get to be with you, only cause I love you. I get jealous at times only cause I love you. No matter how much I cry I’ll take the pain if it means I’ll still have you in my life only cause I love you. But above all, I’ll wait for you and I’m ready to let you be. Goodbye for now and I trust you not to leave me hanging. No matter how hard it is I’ll give you your needs and fall through with my words. I’ll trust that you know my needs as well and fall through with them. Though this hurts more than anyone can imagine, I’ll never lose hope that this will be worth it. I don’t believe in the guy and girl roles in relationships and some may think I’m stupid for being this vulnerable and dumb for what I’m doing in our situation. But I’m not afraid to tell anyone that what I’m feeling is real. No matter how corny this is and how much I hate being OA. I’ll tell everyone if I have to. I love you Darell Turgo.
darell-rocks:
I hate what sociology has done to me. It’s opened my eyes so much. It’s a good thing but it’s opened it so much that i can’t handle it. I’ve been thinking too hard lately. I tell my mom the things ive been thinking about and she gets mad at me cuz i’m being so pessimistic. I know that you dont always have to believe the things you hear and been taught, but it affects the mind so much. Cuz from what ive learned and seen, so far the glass looks half empty….
I understand what youre saying! I hope you don’t mind that I’m reblogging this when I can just text you haha I want this on my blog bluh! but I understand and I feel the same way yet at the same time I also don’t. I mean it does make me sad when our professor points out statistics of being successful or not and everything else he’s taught us you know how “the bay dances a little diff”? haha jk but I don’t know. I think we all go through that point where we’re absorbing information and we’re just so open to know more that we can get stuck and yea that’s it we get stuck because everything we’re learning is just so true and real. Right? Isn’t it hella real? lol. But it’s the next step that I like to think about. I like knowing that I somehow understand a bit more of what’s going on so I can better understand where I want to put myself next and how lucky I am to be where I’m at. Our professor has pointed out that there are the ones who get the lucky life chances of being rich who are already born for success but I don’t like to think that just because my dad isn’t the CEO of some company my life chances of having my glass full is slim, I just have different obstacles. You know? I think things will be alright :) I can go on and on but I think that would be unnecessary…
Church with the whole family today was awesome. Its been a while since my sister came with us. We met up with Fortune’s fam in the parking lot. Late for the mass of course. Typical. Damn filipino time…. Hunger games was doopppee and I ate hella for lunch and dinner. I feel great and phhhaattt.. HAH
Im back on tumblr! yay
like I was ever on this anways haha but I’d like to type more entries now for personal reasons…
I went to the city today with my cousins and as always there were so many interesting looking people around.
One guy crossed the street as we were driving and he had the most amazing hair. It was bleach blonde with light blue I don’t know but it looked dope.
It reminded me of my English teacher’s hair haha Darell knows what I’m talking about.
But back to the point it made me think about how people really want to be different and unique
People dye their hair so many different colors to achieve that uniqueness or pierce this and that or get tatted
but honestly I think the most unique people out there are the ones without any holes in their bodies, any ink or any type of color to their hair. Those are the people I admire. I think its so rare to see anyone nowadays that’s just so clean and I don’t know. I just really admire that
Props to those real original people out there!
Don’t get me wrong though. I have nothing against people that pierce tat and dye. I mean I have three piercings, I’ve been dying my hair since middle school and I really want to get tattoos in the near future. I understand we have our own different reasons for doing so. But I have respect to those people that keep it real. Literally. This is just my opinion doeeee haha
setbabiesonfire:
Waking up is the worst part of the day.
Hm should be the best :) Its a blessing
(via darell-rocks)
blazeaiken:
nikkigabuya:
loraye-lyn:
nuff said
True
Wtf Nikki u reblogged this like 1000 times
Haha wth?? That’s weird!!
(Source: c0urtneh)
